Can’t believe my freshman year in college just ended yesterday. Looking back,  it feels as though it was only yesterday when I entered Room 208—scared ‘cause I didn’t know anyone yet. I had to set aside my feelings of uncertainty and insecurity to socialize without being too “FC”. Grabe talaga, parang kahapon lang. :(

Too bad I only got to be close to more blockmates this sem. Bakit ngayon lang? Nakakabitin tuloy. And nakakalungkot lang, next sem some of my blockmates will transfer to other schools. Oh well. People come and go, ganun talaga. 

I really had fun during the last week of classes. Kasi, ano. HAHA. Alam na. :”> I remember planning to do something silly on the last day of classes. Good thing something stopped me from doing it, and eventually I realized that it won’t do me any good. Plus, it will just make things awkward. 

Yesterday, after the last exam we went to Zark’s, then to Robinson’s Manila to watch HUNGER GAMES!!!! :”>, then back to UST. Then I went home. Nakakabitin talaga, pero okay lang. 

HELLO, SUMMER 2012!!

Minsan talaga gusto ko na sabihin sayo para matapos na. Pero, wala rin. Kasi alam mo naman na eh. Pero of course iba parin pag sinabi ko mismo. Yung galing sakin. But what good will it do? Siguro ang maganda lang na mangyare, makakahinga na ako ng maluwag kasi nasabi ko na sa’yo.  Kasi nga, diba. “The more you hide your feelings, the more they show. The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow.” So the thing is, I’ve been hiding my feelings for quite some time now. Ang hirap itago, kasi nga pag tinatago lalong nahahalata. Alam ko naman na pag sinabi ko, hindi ka maaawkward and hindi ka lalayo, kasi hindi ka ganun. Kaya lang naman hindi ko sinasabi kasi…mapride ako. Babae ako, so hindi ako mauuna. Yun lang. Naisip ko lang, since malapit na ang vacation, okay na rin sigurong sabihin ko na? Wala lang para makalimot na rin. Ang labo mo rin kasi eh. Kasi…ano ba talaga? But before doing any move..I still have to think carefully if I’m really gonna tell you. Bahala na talaga.

• I have extreme mood swings. I could be giddy and excited now, and after one minute sometimes I find myself wanting to cry. Bipolar much? Haha!
• I love to eat. Kahit ano lang talaga. Lalo na pag depressed, kain lang ng kain. Pero, mahilig talaga ako sa burgers, fries, pasta, pizza…lahat na ata.
• Mababaw akong tao. I laugh a lot. One joke could make me laugh for the rest of the day!
• I get sleepy easily. Kahit pa sobrang haba na ng tulog ko, which is ironic. Hyper talaga ako pag kulang sa tulog, and kapag kulang sa tulog grabe ang mood swings ko. :)
• I love doodling, kahit na minsan trying hard? HAHA
• I love dogs. Sobra. Pero, ayoko na magkaroon ng dog, kasi nasasaktan ako ng sobra pag namamatay. Ayoko na. :(
• I get attached easily, that’s why I find it hard to say goodbye. 
• I cry easily, but you could never find me crying in front of anyone. Umiiyak lang ako pag mag-isa. Pag umiyak ako sa harap ng isang tao it means sobrang sakit na, di ko na kinaya.
• Matagal akong magkagusto sa isang tao. And, pag nagkacrush ako sa isang tao, grabe. :( Parang mahal ko na, pero hindi pa naman. Almost, but not quite. Kaya nga, matagal ko maamin sa sarili ko na gusto ko isang tao. Kasi, di naman ibig sabihin na sa tingin ko gwapo ka, crush na kita agad. Bottom line is, iba talaga ako magkagusto. HAHAHA.
• I get distracted easily. Grabe.
• I love reading novels. Promise, this summer talaga magbabasa na ako! 
• Finals na namin next week, and instead of studying….here I am posting stuff about myself. Nagaral na kasi ako, konti palang. Hihi. Fine, I’ll study na nga. :)

Stuff to do for today: 

• Finish the English take-home exam
• Study PGC and Logic

Next week’s our finals week! Wish me luck :”>

Love,

Cam 

It’s funny how two people can have so much in common without them realizing it. 

FINALS!! Grabe, so next week’s the last week of my life as a college freshman. Ngayon ko lang narealize. Sobrang clingy ko ata? Parang nakakaiyak lang kasi isipin na next sem, yung ibang blockmates baka mawala na. And…wala lang. :( Ako pa naman yung tao na mahirap maattach, kasi hirap akong mag goodbye. Ang emo ko na yata. And…hindi rin ako sanay. Kasi next sem baka ano…kjasdksd. .Tapos pag nangyare yun…..ewan ko pero mahihirapan akong magadjust. :(

CLINGY MODE:ON.

• Logic quiz tomorrow about Fallacies.
• Math HW.
• Law cases. 
• Labor code.
• Civil Code.
• Constitution.

Pero, okay lang. Masaya naman ako ngayon. Pwede na rin. Good Vibes!! :”> :”>

So. Since I’m done reading 8 cases and I still don’t have a copy of Libi vs (insert name here)’s case, should I start doing my Math HW or study for Logic? OR…magchill muna ako ngayon? Tomorrow’s the start of hell week I guess. 2 remaining hell weeks before summer! Lezz do this.

”..a heart has reasons of its own which reason does not know.”

I agree. :)