LOVIN’ THE SOUND OF RAIN! Feels like it’s just what I needed besides having a pedicure, hair treatment and a massage. Ewan ko ba. There’s just something about the rain..

Glad I’m seeing my cousins tomorrow! EXCITED. :”>

Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon watching American Pie movies. I’m excited to watch American Reunion! HAHAHA

I woke up at around 9:30 am this morning and I thank God for waking me up and making me realize that it was all just a bad dream. No, ‘bad dream’ is an understatement. It was a nightmare. Actually I was about to cry but when I opened my eyes I realized I was just dreaming. I really hope it won’t happen in reality. It’s gonna drive me insane if it does. :( Hahaha!

• Right now I’m about to sleep but I have lots of stuff going on inside my head.
• I miss my high school friends!! I should find time to see them as soon as possible. Or should I say, THEY should find time to see me. :( They’ve been busy with school stuff ‘cause they have summer classes and we haven’t seen each other since God knows when. We really have to catch up. Exchanging text messages or phone calls couldn’t ever be compared to the feeling of actually SEEING each other, face-to-face with all our kwento about random stuff that happened to us recently. I miss you guys.
• Watching TVD awhile ago made me wish I was as hot as Nina Dobrev. What happened to my self esteem.. 
• I have to get rid of my chubby cheeks. 
• I have to get rid of my allergies. It’s been haunting me for days. :(
• Hello, I miss you.
• I took a nap awhile ago and I dreamt of watching Heat vs Bulls. HAHAHA
• When will I be good in playing Tetris? I feel jealous of my other friends ‘cause they could send about 80 to 130 lines!! How about me :(
• Yesterday I read all my “everyday thoughts” posts and I realized my posts were mostly about my random adventures, college, boredom, him, and him. 
• I have to download new songs and movies soon!
• I just started playing Draw Something yesterday. Who wants to play with me? :”>

I’ve been listening to Chris Brown’s songs lately. Why oh why.

I’m thinking of putting my Tumblr link to my Twitter profile again, but if I do that then my friends will see things I wouldn’t want them to see. Like…hmmm. Like…what? Ano nga ba. HAHAHA. Actually, it’s fine with me if my friends will look at my Tumblr. Pero, di naman kasi lahat ng followers ko sa Twitter ay friends ko. Yung iba, kilala lang nila ako, nakakausap…but that doesn’t mean we’re friends. 

Maybe I’m just not comfortable showing my Tumblr to people who know me personally. Ewan. Ang labo.

IT’S LUNCH TIME! And I haven’t eaten anything yet. :( 

Yesterday was a tiring day for me since we had to go to the dentist (which was located somewhere in Manila) to have our teeth checked. Actually, we went there mainly because my brother had to have his teeth fixed, so mom just tagged me along to have my teeth checked as well. Turns out, the dentist told me that my teeth were  in good shape and it looked as if I had braces before. Haha! Then we got thirsty so we got outside the clinic to see if there were refreshments sold near the area, then there was Simple Line! I never thought they had one there. Kala ko sa may UST lang. So I ordered caramel milk tea, medium. Hmmm, memories? :”>

After like 5 days of going out and visiting random places, here I am all alone again in the house. Parents are at work, bro’s out with his friends to play badminton…actually I was about to join him but I didn’t get to wake up early so here I am, about to watch another movie ‘cause I’m bored and I don’t know what else to do. I just watched The Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants, and New Year’s Eve is next in line! Nakakatamad naman lumabas, it’s so hot outside and most of my high school friends attend summer classes, not because they failed but because their course/school requires them to. I miss my high school friends. I wish I could bond with them soon. 

I’m thinking of downloading movies later. Suggestions, anyone? :)

But if I could, then my life would be less exciting since I already have an idea of what’s in store for me in the next few years. Plus, if ever I don’t like what I’ll be seeing, then I guess the next five years of my life will be spent trying to figure out what  might have happened that led me to that particular situation. If that happens, then those five years will be put to waste since my mind is only focused in the future, not caring much about what’s happening in the present.

Maybe I just have to set my goals, have fun and do my best now so I won’t have to regret anything in the future.

What would life be like if everything happens the way we wanted it to happen? Less drama, no more heartaches, dreams coming true and fairy tale-like endings.  It may sound awesome at first but if you think about it, wouldn’t life be less fulfilling and exciting if everything we wanted happens the moment we think about it? If we all get what we wanted, then we would never really appreciate the beauty of whatever it is that we wished for. We would never get the satisfaction of working hard for something we wanted for so long, and finally achieving it at the end of the day. That satisfaction coming from the blood, sweat and tears of working hard for something we really wanted is priceless, and it could never be compared to any material thing this already-fucked-up world could offer us. 

So if you think about it, whatever it is that you are going through is one of those “obstacles” that could lead you to the finish line—to the goal you’ve been wanting to achieve in so long. So stop whining, and start smiling. Live life to the fullest. Don’t worry too much. Just do your best and let Him do the rest. ;)

These are the times when I’d rather lock myself inside the room, turn on the aircon, spoil myself with chocolates and chips (how unhealthy…), listen to random songs in my iPod or watch a movie rather than go out and feel the scorching heat of the sun. 

ANG INIT LANG TALAGA SA PILIPINAS NGAYON. 

Kbye.

Yesterday we were eating at BonChon and there was this waitress who didn’t really have an idea she was speaking horrible English. 

“Ma’am, Sir, thank you for dine!!” 

“Thank you for take out!!”

Not to be rude or anything, but I swear dad and I laughed so hard when we heard her. Sorry, we couldn’t help it! All smiles pa talaga. Grabe pa naman ako, super babaw. Even the corniest joke could make me laugh. 

Daddy: Grabe, pano kaya pag thank you for coming? “Thank you for come!!”

Me: HAHAHAHAHA.

Sorry I just had to get this off my chest, tawang tawa kasi ako. Pagbigyan na. Siguro ngayon, di kayo natatawa pero pag nandun talaga kayo…grabe. HAHAHAHA.

It has always been a constant battle between what I need and what I want, what I see and what I hear, what I feel is right and what I think is right. 

Sometimes I couldn’t help but think that everything I do is not enough.